Yesterday was my first day of college. … GO ME! Lol.
Anyway, I’m pretty sure you’re wondering why this post is entitled the “First Day of Mayhem.” Well the commute to school is crazy… 4 trains and the coach bus that takes me straight to school. I had to be out of the house by 5:15am to get to Jamaica, Queens by 7am to get to school for 9am! Gahhhhhh! Thank God, I’m only in school twice a week this summer.

The night before, I got all of my things ready so I would be able to leave the house on time. I woke up, got all fresh & so clean clean, dressed, made a cup of coffee, and hit the door. It was pouring rain outside! I knew that was going to make my commute even worse, and it did. My hair got messed up, my umbrella broke, and some dude in the train station bumped into me and broke my glasses! I got to the fourth train at 6am and it was delayed… it didn’t arrive until 6:30am! I started to panic because I really didn’t want to miss the bus at 7am. Thank God, the train that arrived was express! I got on the coach bus, turned my ipod on, and observed my surroundings.

I arrived to school at 8am, which gave me an hour to get myself familiar with the building again. After roaming the building, I went to class. I met a girl named “T” and a dude named “J” in orientation, and we all had Collegiate Development together. It was refreshing to at least know someone on the first day, and it made it a little easier. The three of us went through our day together. J is majoring in Digital Photography, and T is majoring in Criminal Justice.

Anywho, I really like the school alot. I was going to write more, but eh… I forgot. Blah.

I don’t really like writing public entries about my personal life or relationship, but I need to let this out somewhere and I’m too emotionally drained to find the plugin to password protect my entries. Maybe I’ll allow people to register for my site in the near future. But for now, I’m letting it all out…

I’ve been in my current relationship for almost 3 years, and in these past few weeks everything has been going downhill. It seems like my gf has totally lost interest and doesn’t even care anymore. All we do is argue about stupid things that don’t even matter. When I ask questions because I care, she takes it as me being nosey or intrusive, and then gets defensive. It just seems like everything I do is wrong… KC is the bad guy! She doesn’t even ask how my day is or how I’m doing anymore. It just sucks right now. She went as far as turning both of her phones off on me tonight because I began to say how I felt. And thats not the worst, I’ve been walked out on so many times.

Like seriously, I’m not asking for much. All I want is for her to show that she cares. That’s it. Nothing more. At this point, I feel like I’m trying too much. So you know what? I’m going to stop. No more calls, no more texts, no more im’s. Shit, no more crying. I need to be happy.

[edit] I wrote her a long email telling her everything. She called me the next morning apologizing for acting out. We are on good terms right now, but I don’t want things to go sour again so I’m keeping my distance. Like I said, I’m not going to be the one calling, texting, or im’ing all the time. Gosh, I feel like such a punk!